Year: 2009

All I Want to Say is…

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Please think of the consequences that I had told you. I don’t ask for more. All I want is that you understand what I’m thinking, what I’m worrying about all these while that made me acted that way.

I know I worry a lot. That’s me. Things that I worry always happened without fail. It’s not one time, many times. At the end, who was the one that helped you got tru’ all the mess? It’s me. Also, who was the one that always become the bad person? It’s me also. Not only that, who was the one that had to suffer? It’s me also! I don’t know why am I so stupid?

I had told you many times about the consequences when you decided to do this or that but you never listen or bother. You kept assuring me that it won’t happen and you just go ahead. Until at the end, I have to step in to help you with everything, be the devil’s advocate and ended up being hated by people.

For once, please take me seriously. You said it won’t happen as usual but from my experiences all these years, it did happen. How can I trust you again especially this time which related to the only thing and hope that I have?

I worry for the reasons I told you, all I hope is that you will take note of them and realised that these things can happen even though it’s not 100% as it directly affects me. If it doesn’t affect me, you think I will care so much and worry so much?

When it happens, I’m the one that will get hurt. You had hurt me enough with what you’ve done recently and I don’t want you to hurt me more. All I’m asking is please do not hurt me anymore, please take me seriously this time and ponder upon what I had told you.

I know you might not be able to digest what I had told you with your current state but you have to! You started it and you have to take the responsibility. It doesn’t only affect me but you also. You have to know how I feel before you take another leap. You are going too fast, way too fast for me to accept anything. Therefore I have to act fast to let you know all these before you go on to the next step.

I have to be selfish now, just like you. It’s for my well being. I’ve been always trying to be considerate with you but in return what do I get? All I got are your inconsiderate acts because you never think futhur, only care about what’s in front of you and jump right in.

Please… Go slow… Digest what I had told you and don’t make me go crazy and do things that have no advantage to any of us. For once, please go slow, it’s for your own good too. Going too fast will kill you fast.

I wish you all the best and if I do go crazy for no reason from time to time please understand what I’m going tru’. I am as stress as you are.

Thank you for your understanding and I really appreciate what you’ve been doing for me all these while.

Heart Matters

Mister Bean @ Petanak

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Mister Bean, is a fairly new place for dining in Kuching. Actually I saw it somewhere last year if not mistaken but never got the chance to try it out. So went over yesterday.


It’s just located opposite of Popwave and the ex-Bestberry(now known as Zest) at Petanak. They specialised in soya milk and beancurd(tau hu hua in Hokkien). According to the banner there, they are made from high grade bean from Canada, 100% pure and no preservative.


The interior is some sort of like Kaya & Toast and Zest. Ordered wedges(RM5) for fun. I think the portion is slightly small for RM5. Hmm…


Left: Chocolate soya milk(RM2.80), it should be soya milk added with chocolate syrup.

Right: Xin Ciau Beancurd(RM2.80), there’s two type for you to choose, cold or hot. What you see here is cold one. Not so sweet but the xin ciau(cincau) really took a bit of time for me to get used to as this is my first time having beancurd with xin ciau(cincau) served with crushed ice.

Quite an interesting place. I think the pricings are pretty much like Kaya & Toast.

For those health concious people, maybe you can try out this place. Not Halal, only no pork served.

p/s: The colour of the photos are quite dull because I’m using my phone, I didn’t bring my camera.

Food Porn

Hong Kong Noodle House @ Padungan (3)

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It’s been a while not posting eating out post. Last Sunday, mom didn’t cook, so we went out for dinner and ended up at Hong Kong Noodle House at Padungan again…


Left: The dried chili oil but it’s not oily, it’s quite dry. First time encounter the dry one here. It’s quite hard to dip when it’s not wet.

Right: I’m not sure what this is called, translate from the Chinese name is Champagne Pork Rib Rice, but in the menu it’s called Fried Pork Rib Rice and the one above it also got the same name. Therefore if you want to order, you have to know either the Chinese name or the number. For this case, it’s number 27. Too sweet for my liking. Last time I ordered, it came with cucumber slices and tomato, now not a single slice of any of those. The price? RM5.00.


Left: Roast Duck Noodle(RM4.50).

Right: Pork Porridge(RM3.50).


Saw this at the entrance so decided to order it to try. This is called Crispy Pork Intestine(RM8), a mixture of deep fried big and small pork intestine. Indeed very crispy. To me, I find it OK, not so bad but my parents didn’t like it, they said better eat Kueh Chap hahaha…

Food Porn

Songs I Used to Sing in Karaoke – Duet Collections

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Continue from Songs I Used to Sing in Karaoke – Solo Collections

Here’s my collections of duet songs that I used to sing in karaoke.

After I posted up the solo collections, I did get some people telling me that I can go to open concept karaoke(you sing in public) rather than in the room.

I did go to this kind of place few times and I really hate it! It’s not my kind of place, I hate the smoking(everyone is practically smoking), drinking(I don’t drink, soft drinks are just too expensive!), no freedom in song selection(flip the files and it takes time, if you decided to not sing the song halfway, you will have to wait for ages for your turn. You can’t experiement with new songs too), the number of songs you can sing(can only sing less than 5 songs in so many hours provided you go early during happy hour) and the waiting(if it’s almost full house, and your table got lots of people, you might have to wait for at least 45 minutes-1 hour to reach your table and it’s not your turn yet, it’s your friend’s turn!). Not worth my time, money and health. Everytime after those sessions, I will suffer from non-stop sneezing. I rather have singing marathon than having sneezing marathon. It sucksssssssssssss!

Even going to the room type karaoke, I have to choose who is to go with me also, I do not find smokers to go with me because they will surely light up and puff non-stop!

So yea… With all these reasons, it’s unlikely for me to go sing karaoke in any near future. As if I have the time for it hahaha…

The following are songs that I usually sing but too bad… No one can sing with me now also I have no time for it. Ah well… Just watch the videos and sing-along for now, what to do?

广岛之恋 – 莫文蔚&张洪量

你最珍贵 – 张学友& 高慧君

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Me, myself and I

Marriage is the Biggest Challenge in this World

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I came across an interesting article today from the brochure I got from church this morning written by the reverand.

By the way, the title of this post is not the title of the article, the title is my summary after reading the article. Click on it for bigger version if you can’t read the small version here.

I’ll just roughly translate the whole article for those that don’t know how to read Chinese. I will skip the bible verses translation.

There are 5 conversations in the article:

For the deeply in love couple:

Girl: After getting married to you, I will share all your worries and sadnesses with you.
Boy: Honey, you’re so sweet but I don’t have any worry or sadness.
Girl: Oh… That is because we haven’t get married.

For the newly wed:

Groom: If my father didn’t leave me with all the properties, will you still marry me?
Bride: I don’t care who leave you with what, I will surely marry you.

Bride: What do you love about me? My pretty face? My nice body?
Groom: I love your sense of humour.

For the long-time married couple:

Wife: What are you doing?
Husband: Nothing.
Wife: Nothing? You are staring at our marriage cert for 1 hour.
Husband: Oh… I’m looking for expiration date on the marriage cert.

Wife: Why you keep my photo in your wallet?
Husband: If I’m facing any problem, I just have to look at your photo and everything will be fine.
Wife: WOW! I got such huge impact on you!
Husband: When I see your photo, I will tell myself, the person in this photo is the biggest challenge I have to face in my life. There’s no other challenge bigger than this.

If you notice, no matter how successful a person is in his/her life or very strong in facing the challenges thrown to him/her, when his/her marriage is having trouble, everything in the world will turn upside down. Marital issues are life issues. If you don’t want to change your life, no matter how educated or how rich you are, there is no way to save your marriage.

I hope this article will inspire you a little and something for you to ponder upon.

All I can say is that, marriage is no child play. Marriage comes with huge responsibilities. A marriage can either make or break a person. Think carefully before you commit yourself to it. It’s not something as easy as just signing a paper to get married just because you feel like it and later sign another paper to get a divorce when there is no feel anymore.

From My Angle