Category: Heart Matters

Have some stuffs to blog about but quite busy and lazy to edit those pictures. There will be two posts coming, one about Celcom Broadband and another one is the latest place I dined in last night with some of my friends.

Anyway… Just simple text post, some randomness and thoughts.

Sometimes we, human, like to take thing for granted or just look at the big picture and never bother about the little things in life. In fact, these little things are the things that will make or break your life.

Recently I learn to look at the smaller things instead of the big pictures in life and notice that little things really matters a lot. These little things that you (you know who you are) did let me see and feel that you indeed care about me. It’s so tiny that it’s not obvious at all and I’ve been taking it for granted.

Those little things that never cross my mind at all until I examine them closely one lonely night. I’m glad I got it and I appreciate you even more now. Or should I say, loving you more each day? *BLUSH*

I’ll wait… I’ll wait for the day. I’m hoping it to be soon but with the situation now, we know it won’t be soon but I’ll wait. Missing you heapssssssss!

One after another, why I don’t have?!?! I want too! When is my turn? How long to wait? Sigh… *POUT* *SULK*

Okay… That’s all. My shortest post in my entire blogging life ;p

After reading this, please don’t MSN or e-mail or leave any message asking me what is happening or give me any advice or ask me am I all right coz I’m not going to tell you and I don’t need it and you will just piss me off. Just read and leave quietly and pretend like nothing ever happened. Thanks.

What I’ve been worrying these few months is finally coming very very soon. My worst nightmare is unleashing itself. I really don’t know how long I can hang in there before all hell break loose. By then, everything will crumble into pieces and there is no turning back anymore, everything will be gone, gone, gone forever… Just like what that one thing is hoping for all these while.

Things that I had been working so hard and putting hopes on all these years will be gone just because of that one thing. Without that one thing, at least there is still hope.

I’ve been feeling as if I’m holding on to a string that will snap anytime all these while and it’s really happening! All happening in these few months. I don’t know whether I can hang on for another 3 months? With the rate things are going on, I’m not sure things will be able to break the 3-month mark or not.

Don’t even think about sitting down and talk about it because there is no time and no opportunity at all because everything is controlled sadly not by me. I no longer have any power at all.

Dear, will you come and rescue me from this HELL I’m going tru’ before I break down? You’re the only one that knows the whole story and I know you want me to handle it myself, I’ll do my best but please grab me before I fall too deep into this shit just like what you’ve been doing all these while and I really need you now.

Should I end it or not? How long more can I stand? Maybe I should ignore and just do whatever I like as I have no say in anything anymore. It seems like it’s getting worst each day. Too bad, I can’t end it. It is not as easy as it seems unless some other things open up another road for me then I can leave it behind and fly away.

All because of this one thing, it is enough to screw everything that I had planned. Just as things are progressing well, the future seems promising but this one thing comes and messes and distracts everything in the plan. You sucks!

Everything is now control by that one thing. Every single step and every single decision made is all control by this one thing. Sadly, this one thing only brings limitations and has no benefit at all.

If only everything can go back as it used to be or at least this one thing is something that brings something good to everything.

Should I or should I not? Frankly I have no answer for now. All I know is that I’m very very disappointed with what is happening.