After reading this, please don’t MSN or e-mail or leave any message asking me what is happening or give me any advice or ask me am I all right coz I’m not going to tell you and I don’t need it and you will just piss me off. Just read and leave quietly and pretend like nothing ever happened. Thanks.
What I’ve been worrying these few months is finally coming very very soon. My worst nightmare is unleashing itself. I really don’t know how long I can hang in there before all hell break loose. By then, everything will crumble into pieces and there is no turning back anymore, everything will be gone, gone, gone forever… Just like what that one thing is hoping for all these while.
Things that I had been working so hard and putting hopes on all these years will be gone just because of that one thing. Without that one thing, at least there is still hope.
I’ve been feeling as if I’m holding on to a string that will snap anytime all these while and it’s really happening! All happening in these few months. I don’t know whether I can hang on for another 3 months? With the rate things are going on, I’m not sure things will be able to break the 3-month mark or not.
Don’t even think about sitting down and talk about it because there is no time and no opportunity at all because everything is controlled sadly not by me. I no longer have any power at all.
Dear, will you come and rescue me from this HELL I’m going tru’ before I break down? You’re the only one that knows the whole story and I know you want me to handle it myself, I’ll do my best but please grab me before I fall too deep into this shit just like what you’ve been doing all these while and I really need you now.