Happy 28th Birthday to Me

Time flies… I’m turning 28 this year, going to hit 30 in no time! However, I don’t feel like I’m 28, instead I’m only 18 hahaha…

At this age, many of my friends are either engaged, married, have children, climbing up the corporate ladder, buying properties, and so on. Everyone is moving to the next phase of life. One of my friends gave birth to her first child yesterday, just few hours shy away from sharing the same birth date as mine 😉

Me? None of the mentioned. I’m still trying to figure out where I belong to, where I want to end up in life. As many of you know, I have a plan for next year, most know what it’s all about and I’m sure by reading some of my posts you will roughly know too. It will be a turning point for me, trying to discover my strengths and weaknesses by getting out of my comfort zone and trying to figure out where my life should lead me to. I believe there is something out there, something hidden inside of me that is not discovered, I need to find it, that’s why I’m not settling down and there’s no sign of me settling down too, not until I found what I want or what I’m supposed to do. It’s a huge step, I’m going to explore a whole new environment, a whole new life awaiting me. Will I end up with it after the period of time ended or come back to my comfort zone? We will have to see by then.

Remember my IELTS exam? I can’t laugh sigh… I got a phone call yesterday telling me that I have to resit. I thought of changing plan but apparently after doing some research, I have no other option but go back to the initial plan. Sigh… So… I will be resitting IELTS this coming 25th September hopefully will nail it this time. All component 7!!

I’m very worry about writing because the topics are fixed, speaking part I’m quite worry too because I tend to become disoriented if I got too excited+nervous and I would forget about my grammar, run out of vocabulary and “lies”(ideas) just like what happened that time *gulp* Seriously need to overcome this problem. In fact I’m also worry about the listening part, I was lucky the first time, not sure will I be lucky this time around to score almost a perfect 9.

I guess my main problem was being too nervous that day, I hope this time around I will not be so nervous anymore because I’ve been there once and I know what to expect. That’s one expensive “tuition fee”. Have to part with another RM550!! Not cheap! Total will be RM1100, this amount is enough for me to travel to several places or about 1 month rental for next year 🙁 What I’m afraid now is if I still do not get at least 7 for each of the component, I’m seriously in deep shit.

I have more or less 20 days to prepare but after subtracting those days that I will be packed, I have an average of less than a week to prepare 🙁 Then again, I now have problem with how to prepare for the resit. I’m so lost, I have no idea where to start, I’ve exhausted everything I could find and do that time. Am I going to do the preparation the same way? I really don’t know…

Anyway, that’s all for today. Have a great weekend!