Sweet Surrender (Lovebellbelle) - Based in Kuching, Sarawak

My Worst Nightmare Unleashing

March 29, 2009April 2, 2009 sweet surrender 6 Comments

After reading this, please don’t MSN or e-mail or leave any message asking me what is happening or give me any advice or ask me am I all right coz I’m not going to tell you and I don’t need it and you will just piss me off. Just read and leave quietly and pretend like nothing ever happened. Thanks.

What I’ve been worrying these few months is finally coming very very soon. My worst nightmare is unleashing itself. I really don’t know how long I can hang in there before all hell break loose. By then, everything will crumble into pieces and there is no turning back anymore, everything will be gone, gone, gone forever… Just like what that one thing is hoping for all these while.

Things that I had been working so hard and putting hopes on all these years will be gone just because of that one thing. Without that one thing, at least there is still hope.

I’ve been feeling as if I’m holding on to a string that will snap anytime all these while and it’s really happening! All happening in these few months. I don’t know whether I can hang on for another 3 months? With the rate things are going on, I’m not sure things will be able to break the 3-month mark or not.

Don’t even think about sitting down and talk about it because there is no time and no opportunity at all because everything is controlled sadly not by me. I no longer have any power at all.

Dear, will you come and rescue me from this HELL I’m going tru’ before I break down? You’re the only one that knows the whole story and I know you want me to handle it myself, I’ll do my best but please grab me before I fall too deep into this shit just like what you’ve been doing all these while and I really need you now.

Heart Matters

Quiz Overloaded!

March 28, 2009March 28, 2009 sweet surrender No Comments

Off to Sematan today. Meanwhile, the following are some quizzes that I took the other day, have fun with it!

What’s your personality love style?
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Irene Says: It’s pretty true and many said that my standards are too high, hmm… Not really. You just need to have the money(at least financially secure enough), the personality(good one that can help me), and my feel for you. If I don’t have feel for you then it won’t work.

Soâ€¦ Soâ€¦ Vain (3)

March 27, 2009March 27, 2009 sweet surrender 13 Comments

I ran out of thing to update 🙁 I don’t have any photo to share lately. So I decided to edit my photo and show you the before and after effect. Very simple editing using Photoshop CS4, only used the healing brush and liquify. That’s all.

Just dotted of those uneven skin tone, moles, shadows, and dark circles. Then I enlarged my eyes a bit because of my droppy eyelids.

The following shows the makeup I used for the photo.

Foundation: Everyday Mineral Foundation – Neutral.

Concealer: Everyday Mineral Concealer – Abott’s Perk Me Up, Everyday Mineral Concealer – Multitasking, Everyday Mineral Foundation – Fawn.

Eyeshadow: Shiseido Eyeshadow BR754, brown colour.

Mascara: Maybelline Volumâ€™ Express Hypercurl.

Lips: Lip Ice Fruity, Sheer Color.

Blusher: in2it blusher, hehehe… Broken into pieces.

Highlight: Boots No7 High Lights Illuminating Powder, I’m getting to love this, it gives my face the needed contour instead of being just flat. I notice the difference in photos and in the mirror with and without the highlight. Should use this more often. Maybe I’ll post the photo of with and without it in future post when I manage to do so. 😉

Girl Stuffs, Me, myself and I

Cheese Bamboo Charcoal Bread

March 26, 2009 sweet surrender 12 Comments

Does it look gross? Black black bread.

Bought this from Taka the other day. It’s called Cheese Bamboo Charcoal Bread or is it Cheese Charcoal Bamboo Bread? Doesn’t matter, it’s still black ;p

First time see such black bread and was curious about the taste. So bought one, forgot the price, between RM1.50-RM3.

It’s slightly bitter and spicy, hmm… How to explain the taste? Really don’t know how to explain. You need to get accustomed to the taste, it’s not something everyone can accept.

The bread is soft enough. The milky coloured thing is the cheese.

According to the poster at the bakery, it stated that this bread is good for health. How good? I don’t remember what were stated there at all! ;p

Will I buy again? No because I don’t really like to eat bread! This is quite expensive too.

Food Porn

TRUE Wedding Coming Soon…

March 25, 2009March 26, 2009 sweet surrender 7 Comments

Thanks to Cassie for the invitation to this event.

It was a short simple event to let people know about the new magazine that will be coming soon somewhere end of April.

The soft launch was done by YB Puan Sharifah Hasidah Sayeed Aman GhazaIi, ADUN N7 Samariang.

You can read the full press release in cherishmywedding.com

After that, we had some refreshments. First time eating something in 4 Points.

Left: Very colourful mugs.
Right: The fried popiah that I didn’t eat because of my cough. YES! I’m still having cough. Thought that I’m done and over with it but apparently not yet. Some food can trigger it and this time it’s the yam sticks I had on Monday that triggered it.