Why? Why always me? Why everytime when I almost got something, it’s always taken away from me? Everytime like that, 10 times 9 times like that. So unfair! Why I can’t get what I want?!?!? I worked so hard for them, put all the efforts into them, at the end they are taken away from me.
When I want something, I couldn’t get it instead those that I didn’t want keep coming straight to my face? Or should I just accept whatever that is coming to me? Take the second best instead of the best? NO WAY! Why should I do that?!?! I don’t deserve to be treaten this way! I only deserve the BEST nothing but the BEST! Maybe I had set the goals too high? WHAT!?!?! Is it wrong to set high goals? We’re supposed to work hard and always aim for the best? That’s what we are taught, no? Or we should just blame it on luck? If that so… Then I’m constantly having bad luck on just about anything that I do. Right?!!?!?
I feel so ANGRY, sad, desperate, hopeless, uncertain, negative… Negative… They are all NEGATIVE! It’s not one time but almost everytime! I hate it! When will this ever end?