Sigh… It’s May already! Half of 2012 is going to be gone in 2 months time! My stay here is ending really soon! One more study period to go. Then I’m done with my Masters. I still haven’t decide whether to go for PhD or not. I don’t feel like going back. If I didn’t change my program, I would have graduated last month and now busy with preparations to go home some time end of June this year. If I’m not going to continue after Maste degree, then I will go back for good next year early February. There seems to be still quite a fair bit of time left but trust me! It’s not at all. I really cannot imagine myself preparing to go home for good! Freak the hell out of me!
I don’t want to go back so soon is not because I don’t like Kuching, I love it. Just that I’ve been spending almost 3 decades there, I need to experience something different. I still have a lot to discover and learn. There’s no such opportunities if I go back home. Well… You can always say I can always experience different thing in other cities in Malaysia or Singapore but these places are just not where I want to be. It’s either home or here (Australia in general).
The only way for me to stay longer with less money needed is to continue to do PhD. I’m still not very sure I will be able to cope with it or my research interest. All still very vague. Anyway, money is evil! If not because of it, I won’t have to struggle whether to stay or not to stay. It’ll make my decision making so much easier.
Weather here is getting cold and wet. It’s miserable aih… Almost all my friends graduated and go home for good. Used to have many friends here but now everyone has gone home. So sad.
Anyway, life still goes on. Struggling with this silly assignment. Never feel so confused and helpless in my study.