I’ve said it… It took me tonnes of courage to pitch the whole thing out.
I sensed the disappointment or negative vibe even though I didn’t say it face to face but online via chat. I know there will be a lot of uncertainties, how about this, how about that and etc. I’m trying to find balance so that it will benefit everyone.
I don’t know what the person will be thinking but I think at least I’ve said it out earlier is better than later. That way we can at least think of ways to continue with things rather than just end everything which will do no good to anyone.
Frankly, I’m worry. I’m worry about where the whole direction will be heading.
I’m sure there’s negative vibe, just need time to digest the whole thing.
At least I’m doing something for myself and think for myself rather than having my decision affected by someone else. That’s what I’ve been doing all these while, quite silly if come to think of it. I’ve let go of one chance after another chance and now that it’s here, I have to hold on to it as there will not be any chance coming anymore. At the same time, I’m quite afraid in taking the step, I’ve been in my comfort zone for God-knows-how-long.
On the other note, I guess it’s fair that now someone is feeling what I’ve been feeling last year and it took me quite a while to adjust and adapt to it else I don’t think that person will ever understand what kind of emotional roller coaster that I had been tru’.
So… What else can I say? I’ve said it out and now it’s time to see what’s the next step should be to create a win-win situation.