Month: January 2009

Are you a REASON, a SEASON, or a LIFETIME?

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I know I’ve been very rude and harsh to you. I know that people is attacking me now. I purposely did so as I know you won’t care about it also. I just want to satisfy my own dissatisfactions and also to gain traffic(HAHAHA!). I’m selfish, you are too.

I just cannot see you destroying yourself like this, that goes the same to other friends of yours. What to do? We tried the soft way, it won’t work; we tried the hard way, it won’t work also. At least we know that we are not going to give up on you. What we can do now is hope and pray for you to wake up soon.

I don’t hope for any forgiveness nor apology from you. You had apologized to me several times but all I can say is that, I cannot accept your apologies. No point. You have to apologize to your parents that had brought you up because you are destroying whatever they had given to you and their hope for you.

Destroying your body by drinking and drinking, destroying your self-esteem by falling into that stupid trap and not willing to climb out of it even though you had been given with so many chances to do so, destroying your friendship that you had built all these while and etc. You know it’s wrong but you prefer to stay on. Destroying everything just because of one person that you just got to know for one month that is making your life upside down.

What else can we do? Nothing I guess… As you are already in deep shit. If you do read this, I hope it will help you in getting your feet back into your life. I know you won’t be reading this and the following article but I would love to share this meaningful article with everyone out there.

This is one article that I came across long long long time ago and it had more or less gave me some strengths whenever I need it and I also know some people that find it useful. Here you go…

When someone is in your life for a REASON… It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for a REASON you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent has been answered. And now is it time to move on.

Then people come into your life for a SEASON… because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a SEASON.

LIFETIME relationship teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

-Adapted from The Borneo Post, Nature & Health, 16 Dec 2001-

So? Which one are you? Which one you want to be? May God bless you. Amen.

Heart Matters

Suddenly the “War” Started

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Just as I thought I got nothing to update, suddenly the fireworks started and it’s much more exciting than the eve.

More varieties and everyone was trying to outdo each other. So funny. What are they keeping it for? For time like this? To compete among each other? I thought the best time to do so is during the eve not on the fifth day. Hmm… Wonder, wonder…

I managed to capture some and they are so much better and nicer than the previous photos. Enjoy the photos:




As usual, those interesting ones are always at the street light *LOL* Coz that’s the direction where the rich people is staying at my area hahaha…

Started again now… WOW!

Uniquely Kuching

4th Day of Moo’s Year

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I’ll update about 3rd day when I got the photos.

Just a quick one, I’m terribly sick today. I can’t remember when is the last time I’m sick until like this.

This morning, when I woke up, my head was so giddy and my body was extremely painful with every single movement even with slight cough or sneeze. So painful! I tried to stand up and every single part of my body got no support at all, just like a rag doll -.- My throat was so painful and I almost thought that I won’t be able to talk at all. Luckily later in the morning it got a bit better and I could move around but still very slow pace.

Then went visiting with Lee to Lee Ling’s, Audrey’s and Ann‘s house. I couldn’t really talk much as it would trigger my cough as a slightest cough or sneeze is enough to make my abdomen very very painful as if my internal organs were all dislocated after the continuous cough and sneezing last night. Very very sick 🙁

Found these cute cookies at Audrey’s house:

Rain for more than 48 hours, still raining now. Many places got into flood again. Everyone seems like preparing for another round of flood. If the rain doesn’t stop, we might see similar flood again. These were taken at Batu Kawa:

Very very sick now… Going to sleep now… Good night.

Personal Events, Uniquely Kuching

2nd Day of Moo’s Year

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Oh dear… I was so bored. No one came to kidnap me 🙁 No photo to share also because nothing to take.

Usually the second day is to visit some net friends’ houses but oh well…. Somebody decided to settle it on the first day so I got nothing to do. I just stayed home and online and play game. BORED! PATHETIC!!! ;p

Enough that I got sore throat because I got choked by the salt on the first day. Then suddenly in the evening, I sneezed non-stop, then my left eyelid got itchy and swelled -.-” After that my body was so painful and felt cold as if like I’m down with fever. It was terrible. Couldn’t really sleep well whole night because body was painful and one side of my nose was stuffed every few hours. The funny thing was that my throat was no longer sore even until now but got cough due to the stuffy nose. Strange eh…

I will update the 3rd day of Moo’s year when I got the photos from Lee. Hopefully he will send it to me soon. I’m having runny nose and kept sneezing until now. I hope my friends won’t get infected by me *LOL*

Personal Events

1st Day of Moo’s Year

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Can’t sleep last night. Don’t know why. Maybe too angry? Maybe due to my sore throat. Tossing and turning the whole night.

Overall, it SUX! Sorry… I don’t observe those Chinese pantang so don’t preach me about it. Obviously, I’m in very foul mood, so don’t mess with me!

Even this photo you see here that I took after I’ve done my makeup before going to Lee’s house doesn’t look very much happy also. The smile is damn fake!

Let’s see what I had done yesterday:

  • Woke up at between 9.30am-10am. Had my sweet time with my breakfast and the previous day’s Chinese newspapers.
  • Shower, lunch and then went out to get pizzas for the visiting guests.
  • Went over to Lee’s house, there were many suckers on the road, driving dangerously fast and no manners.
  • Went over to Khoon How’s house as he was having open house and this dude got himself drunk before we arrived even though we called him before went over. So this is the first time we went to a friend’s house without seeing the friend at all. We ate and left. Will knock his head tomorrow hahaha…
  • Reached home, dinner and got choked on a lump of salt -.-” Now I’m having sore throat. 🙁
  • Later found out sucky thing that a person did. Don’t even preach me or saying that I’m small gas. I’m not, there are in fact other things that that person done that aggreviate this anger which I cannot reveal here, maybe one day… We’ll see…

    I asked you things, all you said to me were ‘lazy’, ‘donno’, ‘not interested’ and ‘tired’. Fine! I didn’t want to bother you. I didn’t mind. What I’m not happy was that you went to some friends’ houses without even have the courtesy of asking me whether I would like to go or not since we’ve been going there every year.

    When people asked where I was, you just told them I’m at other friend’s house. YES! I know I was at other friend’s house, the thing was that you didn’t even bother to ask me whether I want to visit them or not even though I know you would rather go with someone else rather than me. AT LEAST! Ask me! I might be angry but it won’t be as bad as finding it out myself when people asked me, “Eh… That person didn’t tell you?”. This was how shocked, disappointed, and angry I was.

    Ever since that someone comes into your life, you have lost interest in everything except drinking and anything related to that person by jeopordizing your physical and mental health. I’m not happy with that!

So that sums up how sucky the first day was.

No! Don’t ask me to let it go or whatever advice. I don’t want to hear. I welcome other comments but not relating to this issue. Thank you for your understanding.

Heart Matters, Me, myself and I, Personal Events